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I listen to this when i'm feeling cockyyyy.

trueeeeee.

Spring Break 2011

best. spring break. ever. <3
I swear I experienced every type of emotion in this one week, but it was all worth it.
I'm absolutely devastated that I have to go back to school tomorrow :(
I discovered myself more in this one week than I did the whole first semester.
It's only a preview of what's to come this summer I promise.
Summer 2011 is about to crack.

*pause* *gets up & starts dancing*

This used to be the SHITTTTT back when i was five.

A band that I kinda like.

They're around my age & from Chicago too.

Okay I lied...

So I'm a Jordan hype too.
Because i LOVE these shoes.
I have a thing for the color grey (:
They release May 14th.





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I want this damn sweater but...
it costs a whole fucking $1700.
AND it's sold out :/

http://shopvintage.tisavision.tv/product/vintage-polo-indian-head-sweater

Just some fashion looks that have inspired me lately..

Something I need to get off my chest.

So I was complaining to a 'friend' of mine about my whole love life situation yesterday, & she said something that's been stuck in my head ever since it happened.
I was like, "& just wait til' he texts me..."
& she was like, "He won't."
& I was like, "How would you know? You don't even know the nigga. You had one conversation with him."
& she was like, "I just know he won't. Don't try to stunt on him now."
...
Now I have to say that since it bothered me so much, I MUST believe her. But the audacity of that bitch to try to spread her negativity to me... It's almost like, whenever someone genuinely likes me she never believes that it'll last for long. She treats me like I'm still the same insecure girl she knew back in 7th grade. . . BITCH. Well I'm not. & when things have been so shitty for so long, they've got to get better right ?

I'm not really a Jordan hype as much as I am a regular Nike hype...

I've wanted some shoes like these (Black & Gum Colored High Nike Dunks) but I'm a procrastinator when it comes to buying shoes. http://store.nike.com/us/en_us/#l=shop,pdp,ctr-inline/cid-1/pid-365346/pgid-316042

So I was on my pandora...

this came up, & my chest instantly started to feel more relieved.

There's something about this song. <3

Quote of the Day

Erasing the Memories.

A lot of times I find it difficult to forget about the things that have caused me great pain,
and to remember the things that have turned out good or made me happy.
Why is that?
Well, obviously this world is BACKWARDS so that may have something to do with it.
From this point on, I have made a conscious decision to only remember the things that made me happy,
And not the things that broke my heart.

Realizing your worth.

"If you don't love yourself then no one else can... you teach people how to treat you."


Easier said than done.
I've always been the one talking shit about my friends to my other friends like,
"Why would she let a nigga treat her that way? He's not even cute."
or
"She's a dumbass for putting up with his shit. He obviously doesn't want her. Why doesn't she notice it? Everyone else does"
Well... I have officially been silenced.
'Cause look at the shit I'm dealing with now.
It's all too similar to a situation that I've seen before.
& the ironic thing is that, I told myself that I'd never put myself in a situation where I would be that vulnerable towards a dude but..
Lo & Behold!
I'm in that same situation I swore I'd never be in.
Life/Karma's a bitch.
So pay attention to what you say. . . It just may come back to slap you in the face.

Sperry Top-Siders

... I'm buying these bad boys next chance I get :)

Something I've always battled with..

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According to society, these two are prime examples of 'baddd bitches.' Light skin, long hair (*cough cough* WEAVE *cough*), perfect waist-to-hip ratio, flawless makeup and smiles, expensive taste in clothes, etc. Honestly, I do think that they're very pretty and all but, what about the other girls on this earth ? What about the girl that wasn't born with 'good hair' and can't afford the tracks to make up for it? What about the girl who doesn't like to cloud her face with foundation, eye shadow, eyeliner, and mascara? What about the girl with heredity acne? What about the stick skinny girl that doesn't have curves? What about the girl who has dealt with weight issues her whole life? Are you saying that she can't be 'badd' because she doesn't look like them? & yeah I get it, you can just simply answer the question with a 'no, she can't.' But then don't complain about issues like teen pregnancy and all that shit, because it starts with low self-esteem, which began with this whole 'pressure to be beautiful' bullshit. Women are the mothers of this earth, but we're more often than not treated like the unwanted step-children. Just think about that.

Natural Hair Hype.

You're probably thinking.. "Who's that girl?" Answer: Umm... that would be me without my beloved sew-in. I can't say I was completely natural in this picture, but I was a few months into my transition. A few months after this became one of the lowest periods of my life... I was constantly ridiculed and judged for my decision to go natural and had no idea how to handle it. Being 15 years old, I had no idea how to deal with a group of people judging me for my decision to stand out from everyone else. I honestly don't even know why I decided to go natural; I think it was because I was just sick of having to get a relaxer nearly every month only to find out that my hair was still breaking off. I guess his was my first step into the realm of liberation from the norms of society. Another question I usually get is, "If your hair is supposedly 'natural,' they why is it straight ?" Well, that my friend, is a complicated answer within itself. I wear my hair 'straight' under a sew-in for a few reasons: one, because it allows my hair to stay healthy while my relaxer completely grows out; two, because people don't make fun of me nearly as much with a weave. Yeah sure, I get the usual 'weavey-wonder' comments and all that crap, but who gives a fuck anymore? They make fun of me with it, and they made fun of me without it. There truly is no way to please everyone.

Well, since I'm new to this...

I figured that I might as well post some stuff about me.

• Mi nombre es Folasade, pero gente me llaman Sade.
• I guess I kinda know Spanish... (that sentence wasn't bad now was it ?)
• I'm of Nigerian descent (a statement that I've struggled with my whole life but that I'm learning to be proud to say).
• I live in Illinois.
• I'm almost 16 years of age. My birthday is El Cinco de Mayo.
• I have a potty mouth, so curse words will most likely be all up and down this blog.
• I decided to make this blog after a recent stint of bad luck during my spring break sophomore year..

Now that we got that out the way, let's get started with the blogging ?